Does anybody else in here feel the way I do?

SigmundAs ugly as the sea monsters were both on the outside and inside (what’re ya gonna do when you’re a sea monster and of course, except for Sigmund…the innocence of youth, huh), I find that humanity can go far far beyond anything a mean old sea monster could even conjure up. I’ve been ugly beyond measure, maybe you have too (maybe you still are…I don’t fucking know you), perhaps human beings are the only animals that do things just to be a dick. On a mountain in the plains of NoWhere Kansas, God handed down to me a bunch of rules, and the one rule to rule them all is “Try not to be a dick.” Notice he/she chose the word “try.” In my convoluted faith, there is no original sin and certainly no incestuous first family where we blame the first sin on the Mom (the one who has to suffer beyond measure to bring each and every one of us rotten bastards into the world). In fact sin in the bible means, in kinda of a cool way, “incomplete.” There is good and bad in human nature, in fact when you think about it good and evil are human constructs, they only exist in our minds, the way of the universe has nothing to do with good and evil. Remember you(we) are tiny little specks of nothing ness in the grand scheme of the universe, it just is what it is and as a oneness behaves for the most part outside our comprehension. If there is a God, it is that oneness…perhaps.
coffee demonTalk about tattoos that fucking hurt.  Just a calf but you’da thought I was getting a rib cage done.  I felt bad for the artist because it was causing me to involuntarily twitch (try drawing in a moving car on a bumpy road), but I thought the final product turned out pretty alright and gets the message across. Coffee fiend, ya know?  You?

New Lee Hardcastle, motherfuckers!


Cindy Yang Mix
That up there is the song list off a comp I made in around ’88 for a gal friend of mine who was very dark and obsessed with death.  I don’t recall why we stopped corresponding and I hope she lived through that stage in her life.  Not the most uplifting comp, I may have realized that and thought how stupid is that to give someone mortally depressed this cheery thing.  Reviewing the tracks and seeing the theme of what I was trying to put across (“I love you, please don’t kill yourself”), the only song I would get rid of is the Spazztic Blurr tune, I don’t know what the fuck I was thinking, ’88 was a pretty stoney year.  As I was listening to it the other day, several songs hit me a bit more than the others, let’s face it, I didn’t fuck around, these are all hits.  The classic Floyd tune that really sums up the whole wondering what ever happened to this gal.  The hardcore reality of the Social Unrest song.  Then that Iggy one, which leads to whole other story of folks that I lost contact with, that I hope are well. Ripped the cassette as one file if anyone wants it, as you can see there’s some hum dingers on there and if I do say so myself a classic 80s-esque old fashioned mix tape…all taken from vinyl or cassette…spent many an hour making these things for folks I cared about (and I care about you, faceless/nameless person).  Nobody values that type of thing today and I have to admit, as a result, I’d rather just do it digitally from files I’ve got on the hard drives from music I ripped already or absconded from the matrix.  I still listen to all these bands and make mixed CDrs from their tunes.  Anyway…I remember Vera Lynn…

Where she is now I can only guess…

WD-40 Rehearsal5Fuckin around with an online photo editor and filters wishing I had a proper copy of Photoshop. I had one but it died with a computer a while back.  Ya see, I bitch about technology but it’s a love/hate thing…in a luddite move I did turn off fucking Facebook though (thanx to Shawn for giving me that word to mull over). We’ll have to see how that goes (I’m 7 days in and I find myself wondering what to do with my extra time).  Did hook up with my pal Björn outta Sweden via WhatsApp and couldn’t be more stoked on having that kind of communication with him.  If you’re reading this sir, a tall glass of water and wide cup of coffee to you.  And to you fuckers out there I hope you took the time to listen to some UDL (Unter Den Linden).  They’re as good or better than they were 40 years ago.  On top of getting the 12″ EP Krautish, I managed to connive my way into getting the limited to 25 CDr Sauerkrautish from him…fucking classic early 80s UDL.  Perhaps, if given permission, I will upload a song or two to that youtube thing.  By the way, the lathes that I sent him 20 of 25 are sold the fuck out, so if you’re wanting one hit me up I’ve got a couple left to pass on to folks with taste…

Another pal (past tense perhaps, I have been trying to reach him virtually but he doesn’t respond) Ren’s band Naturecore, back then I knew him simply as Ron Naturecore.   Great guy who is still doing music as far as I know.  Anarcho Peace Punk at it’s very finest, atypical stuff, these folks were extremely creative in their sound and don’t really follow a blueprint…

Wendy-LemmyFor yet another pal Nazz, who was (is) not a fan…but c’mon man you gotta give her street cred for hooking up with Lemmy (don’t make me feel self important and have to tell the story of the time I met Lemmy back in the 80s…..haha).

Ran across this rarity, Voices of Haiti recorded by Maya Deren. The 10″ fetches over $100 in decent condition and even the recent 12″ repress is up around $35 (which reminds me that I haven’t bought a record in a while…maybe giving that up too…hmmm). I bet Haiti was a wild place when this was recorded in 1953, way outta my element, but I can still very much appreciate what’s going on here. Haiti would be a harsh place to have your soul deposited, imagine you were born and raised there…harsh. If you don’t dig heavy percussion, this ain’t for you…

Tree1aIf this place gets 8 hits in one day I’m pretty stoked, over time that shit adds up. Some folks come back, I figure because they can relate to at least a tiny bit of the random ramblings ’round here or perhaps it’s that I’m, “…funny like I’m a clown, I amuse you?” Regardless, maybe too I provide you with a couple of tunes you dig, whether you’ve heard them before or you’re just now tunin’ in for the first time. I struggle in real life, you probably do too in your own way, but sharing ideas and listening to music, I’m definitely okie dokie with. Along those lines, still making mixed tape CDrs for my peeps…If’n you want to be one of those, email me you addy and I will get one (or 12) sent to ya.  Probably no one will respond, but that’s okay, had to put it out there.  Like wise, if you are one of those kind souls who makes mix tapes, I’d happily send you my snail mail addy..consider it please.  For now here’s one of my favorite Violent Femmes songs, reminds of my first year at Humboldt State and would be a valuable contribution to a mix tape…