Only wanted to be your friend…

Whelp, no takers on my last post of folks that might want to trade CDrs, disappointing and heart wrenching…hahahaha.

Feeling Tim Burton-esque tonight (I know some favor Edward Gorey, like my old buddy Match), I’m sure that I’m not the only one who gets that way sometimes. For decades I had this self pity thing like I had been fucked over by everyone, but in my old age I realize that I did my fair share of fucking people over. Even after 14 years off the hooch, I realize that in the rooms of NA and AA, I never made my way completely through the steps…got stuck at…
8. We made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
9. We made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
I am incomplete! Suppose I’ll stay that way way until I die, not sure though if at that point one is complete or just done…cheers.   Anyway Tim Burton…

Stick Boy liked Match Girl,
He liked her a lot.
He liked her cute figure,
he thought she was hot.

But could a flame ever burn
for a match and a stick?
It did quite literally;
he burned up quick.

In high school (pictured are Davrick, Anna, Karen, Greg, Me, Vivian and I can’t remember his name) one of my favorite albums was Hüsker Dü’s Zen Arcade. Perfect album for a bummed out teenager.  At the time I thought my heart was broken by this one gal, Elisa Monroy, but that was puppy love and only the tip of the iceberg in a long history of squashed hearts…

Told you everything I knew about me
Didn’t listen to a word I say
Spill my guts, you just threw them away
Never cared about me
Only wanted to be your friend
Now I know that it’s gotta end
Never cared a thing about me
And now I will, I will
I will never forget you
I will never forget you
I will never forgive you

4 thoughts on “Only wanted to be your friend…”

  1. J.the way I see it, the main point of the 12 step program is to stay clean. Or sober or whatever. 14 years without it means that whatever step you at. It is working. Dont dwell on what step you shit the bed on. Look at the fact that you haven’t had a drink, hit or whatever else in a very long time. I look up to you for that. I can’t start a program because I’m not powerless and i don’t believe in ANY higher power. I’m prolly way off but I’m proud of you man. Like Lemmy said. Stay clean.
    I don’t have any CDs to trade bro
    The panel truck. Loved that one bro. I rode in the back of that to pizza parlor shows. So great!


    1. Thanx B! You know how it is, when you give a fuck, you look back and see a rocky road and looking forward there’s a big question mark. I’m good. I’m like Motorhead when they were a three piece…


  2. I’ve changed up CDs in my truck. It includes sabado gigante super speciale now. I’ve bad it thru the South African club rap song Gucci coochie great so far thanks


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